Michael & Tonya Elgan: Twin Mama

I obviously am a mother to twins. If I am being honest it has been the hardest month of my life. Harper was released from the NICU November 5th and her Olivia on the 10th. Everyone said to see that as a blessing that they weren't coming home at the same time so I could try to get a routine going.... well that was going well for a couple days and the Olivia came home and that routine I had completely went out the window and its been a struggle since. I love having twins don't get me wrong , but holy crap is it a lot of work. Just one baby is a lot of work so you can imagine how having two is going for me right now. Let me give you a little idea of how things have been going. Last night the girls were up every four hours which you might think isn't that bad but its not that great either...

When I hear one start to get fussy I wake up go put the bottle in the warmer (praying I have enough milk mixed. Harper is getting 2 extra calories per feeding and Olivia needs 4 extra calories mixed in my breast milk). While the bottle is warming I get one of the girls out of bed change their bum and pray to not get pooped on. Which by the way happens WAY to often. After one baby is done I start the process over again and if Michael doesn't have to get up for work early in the morning then he will feed one of the girls. That alone takes 45 minutes and that depends on how fast they decide to eat. Sometimes They will take a long time and other nights they suck it down so fast i have to slow them down. Then Of course Ill have to pump before I can go back to bed. So yes You can easily say I am learning to function on no sleep. Im not doing so well.. haha. After they woke up to eat this morning around 6 am I swear I did everything in my sleep because when I woke up again to feed them at nine thirty In my bed was a half a bottle of milk dripping on the sheets and two dirty diapers and Olivia sleeping sound on my chest. When I lifted her up I had milk crusted on my chest and poop on my belly from her cute little blow out. Harper was sound asleep next to me I usually let them snuggle in bed with me for an hour each morning but never sleep in bed with me. I couldn't get Olivia to eat her usually amount the rest of afternoon. All she did was cry every time I put her down and smile every time I held her. I was trying so hard to get ready to run errands but it was completely impossible. Michael got home around 2 and the girls finally fell asleep and I was able to go do what I needed to get done. When I got home I told Michael to try to get Olivia to at least eat 4 ounces and of course he had no problem.. funny how that works. Tonight was also bath night so you can imagine how well that goes. They actually don't mind taking baths as long as I don't take too long and I have a bottle waiting for them when they get out. After they are clean and changed is my favorite time they smell so good and their hair gets so fuzzy. :)

Tonight the laundry is almost done and my house is actually pretty clean. Im currently laying in bed while my little girls sleep next to my bed. I love hearing their little baby noises and grunts. I love how completely content I feel. I will say this I am so exhausted and I don't remember the last time I slept for more then three hours at a time. Its amazing to me how much my life has changed and how much I love that it has. As hard as this has been I wouldn't change anything. I love how much they need me. I love how cute they look after they are so full and ready to fall asleep. I love how easy they make it to be happy. I love that I am finally exhausted.

Being a mother to TWINS is the best!! Michaels mother should be here within the hour so we are going to tai full advantage of her and sneak off to a movie tomorrow night! Im so excited to go on a date with Michael!