Michael & Tonya Elgan: Fight like a girl

Last night I read a story that was going around on Facebook about when to have kids. It kept me up all night last night I called michael worried about my health. Even though I am healthy I was more meaning about having endometriosis. It's not a fun subject for me to talk about. I have a endometrioma cyst or also called a chocolate cyst. You can only get them from having endometriosis. Which is the reason I'm guessing I have a hard time getting pregnant. I have been told by one doctor to leave the cyst because I have gotten pregnant with it once now. But then I've been told to have it removed so it doesn't continue to get worse, and if they can clear up the endometriosis my chances of getting pregnant will increase. It scares me because the first doctor never mentioned that I could loose part of my left ovary if I take it out and it might damage the remaining ovary to the point it will no longer function. So you can see why I have been putting off the surgery for so long. It scares me.

Michael and I have been talking about our options and what we feel to be best for us. I finally last night decided I didn't want to put it off any longer. Michael has been so supportive and comforting that even if the worst should happen I know we will be okay. I know what most people are thinking your only 22 why are you so worried... Well if you were me you would understand, you would see how scary it is to be told that the older you get and the worse your cysts and endometriosis gets the lower and lower your chances of having kids will be. It's not because I'm living in a Mormon community and having kids at a young age is what you do. It's because I love kids and I want to be able to have a family with Michael. I don't care if people think I need to live more and do more I honestly don't think your life Is over once you have kids I Believe it's just getting started. I want to go make memories and experience things with not only Michael and I but my kids as well.

So I finally called this morning and made my doctors appointment for my last opinion on wether or not to remove my cyst. And then I'll schedule my surgery to clear up the endometriosis and possibly take the cyst along with it! Wish us luck that everything will work out the way it should! Michael and I are nervous but

very hopeful!