It's going to be okay.

Michael and I woke up this morning fed up with the lies and words being twisted to make us look bad. So we decided to write up a huge post about the truth every text message and voice recoding from Boston's mother to prove to everyone the type of person she really is. How she really is just a hurt and confused person who needs help. But as the day went on and I sat around with Michael blogging everything. And I mean every little detail and bout the truth. From child support and day care to the lies an twisted disgusting words of her. But then I realized that's the past and I don't live  in the past. And writing all this up just made us sick to our stomach not for us but for Boston. And even though we get talked about daily by Boston's mother and in a negative way. We realized she may not be saying things to Boston's face as terrible as what she posts online. Boston will read all of this one day and it won't matter what is said in front of Michael's  daughter because she will read everything on her mothers blog and ours and know for herself. Which in my eyes is just as bad. Boston right now is sweet and innocent. She doesn't know fear, hate or jealously. When she reads things like this when she is older she will learn those things. And then I think to myself if this was my daughter I would pray everyday that she never has to feel those things. Especially from her parents.  If I could only show my kids the love and joy life can bring I would sleep easy at night. But because I know how cruel life can be I know that is not possible. All I can do is show how to handle things in different ways so it does not hurt as bad. (Im not pregnant just speaking for my future kids) Boston is not my bio child. But I care for her like I will care for my own. I will have a stronger connection to mine. But I will never hold resentment or take my anger out on Boston. She has done nothing wrong. 

So although I would love to prove to people how the situation really is but if I'm being  honest that would take way to much of my time that I just don't have to waste on her right now. Michael and I are married and even though it is hard for her to wrap her head around it. We are. That will never change. She is not apart of our life. Boston is. She is just the girl we sometimes have to deal with to see his daughter. Nothing more. Does it bother me that she is still in love with Michael? Yes! Does it bother me that she continues to post pictures of him? Yes! But does it worry me?? Hell no. If Michael wanted her he would have been with her. He fell in love with me and got down on one knee a year ago and cried when he asked me to spend the rest of my life with him. I have no insecurities about my marriage. It does get hard at times dealing with all of this. Because let's face it no wife should have to out up with this. I do not need to justify my action towards my husbands daughter to anyone! Michael loves me and loves me even more for how kind and equal I treat Boston!  He tells me everyday how blessed his is to be with someone so kind that no matter my feelings towards Boston's mother or the things she has done to me has no effect on the way I treat his daughter. I never and I mean never call myself her mother! I will let her decide what she calls me. But really I'm fine with ton-na! I love hearing how little kids try to say my name! 

So she can do what she wants and post what she wants but I hope she realizes who will read them and how she will feel. And no matter what she does she will not keep Michael from Boston. Btw I do not have any DUI's!! It's pretty low of her to make up lies just to make me look bad. 

Michael and I will have our chance to share our story to Boston. That's really the only person who needs to hear it. I can't wait to take family pictures again and have our little kid on my knee next to Boston! 

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Much love, Tonya