Just Breathe

Today I went to bear lake I got to visit my sister and see my sweet little niece!  I have missed her so much! 

I am pretty happy with how things are going right now. The best part of being who I am, is all the stories I can share! I have so many life experiences that are not all good but defiantly not all bad!! I am not the type of pperson to live in the past. I have always been moving forward. I don't talk about my last marriage all the time or who broke my heart or who did me wrong. I think they best way to live is to live in the now. I don't care what people find out about my past. My past will not change my life right now. Boston's mother sent me a text a while ago that said she was having her ex husband pay to have my past dug up. One I think that is a little weird.. And obsessive. But I guess do what you have to right? Although for a while I sat around 

Thinking about everything that I have done in my life and how it could effect me. Then I heard she was going to wyoming to meet up with people from my past...? Anyways I got a really sick feeling in my stomach and called Michael in worry. He calmly reassured me that if it was happening it wasn't going to matter. Everyone has a past and no matter what choices I made back then do not define who I am today. He said "I see everyday the person you are and that's the person I love. That's the person that matters to me, I have a past and I know how my past keeps coming back to hurt you but you stand by my side. I will always do the same." 

It really made me feel better and even though my past hurts me to think about, it does not effect my future. I know who I am and where I want to be in life and to have someone so obsessed with my life and trying to bring up my past has only made me more secure about who I am today. I love the person I am turning out to be. A relationship is built on trust, Michael and I have a lot more to deal with than most newlywed couples, but it only makes us stronger. 

Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. And life makes love look hard. 

Quote of the day: 

"If you could go back and just change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing? Just one moment. One moment that you've always wanted back." - One Tree Hill

Much love, Tonya