MY APOLOGY

 APOLOGY: A written or spoken expression of one's regret, remorse, orsorrow for having insulted, failed, injured, or wronged another:

I think in my life the things I need to apologize for are the following

When I was in the 4th grade I stole pins and other small items.. I was young. 

When I was young I told my dad I hated him once I think or at least imagined saying it. 

Asking my mother to let my step mother adopt me because I so badly wanted her affection.. 

For hating my older sister for years when she was only trying to help me.

For putting my family in the worst position and had them fearing for my safety. 

For marrying someone who I thought I loved and then hurting his family when we got divorced. 

For talking to other men over the phone while I was married to my ex husband. 

For treating the girls horrible that chose to hurt me in my time of need. 

Making Michael chase me and testing his trust. 

Not being there when my family needed me. 

For messing with peoples heads. 

Shutting my mother out of my life. 

Loving Justin Beiber..

Treating my dad horrible when he did the best he could to raise four kids on his own. Even with  a Three year that had just had open heart surgery and was on constant medical care. 

For telling my little sister she could swing out of a willow tree like me. She ended up falling on a box and having seizure and watching her bite her jaw so hard together and watching her face turn purple. While her little body shacked uncontrollably. 

Lying to people to make things better. 

Hurting friends and their family because I was being selfish. 

Having people see a post war between Boston's mother and I because we are rude to each other  and I had to file and no contact order. Not just because she was rude but because I was too and the only way to keep me from telling her what I thought was to file a report. 

THINGS I WILL NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR 

Knowing when to get out. 

Saying what I have said.. I stand behind everything that comes out of my mouth, yes even the bad. 

Meeting up with Michael while his daughter was in the hospital. Because I knew he needed a friend and I could be that for him. We would give each other a hug and kiss and I would leave him. He was never married. (he was never in a relationship...ever. He never left his girlfriend and baby another women.  He is still in his daughters life. Michael finally fell in love with someone and decided to get married. You can't help who you love.)

Saying that I would talk to Michael about staying in his daughters life. 

trying to meet Boston's mother when we went to pick up Boston and sat there while she called me trash and didn't even give me a chance to talk. 

Treating Boston the way I do. 

ps  because  I filled a report  for no contact by law I cannot contact Boston's mother electronically. We can talk in person all we want. So to accuse me of being that stupid to post on her blog to be traced for me to receive a ticket and possible jail time would be completely stupid. 

Pretty sure I just owned that like a women.. :) 

My little sister who has made me appreciate life and what a gift it is. 

My Big bro.. always looking out for me and taught me to always stand by my actions.

Best friend a girl could ask for. 

Honestly family is all I need. I am not asking people to feel sorry for me or begging for an apology from someone that has tried to not only hurt me but my family too..  just so people will believe what they did. I know what they did and I accepted it and am trying to move on. 

This is the moment I chose to forgive and move forward!!