Strength

I know a lot of you read what my step daughters mother said about me and my girls last night. She is now trying to make light of it and act like what she said was no big deal. But Im sorry Im just not okay with that at all. You do not get to make fun of the way a child looks and call them a "science project, special needs, hideous insects and a number of other things and get away with it. My daughter wears a shaping helmet. That does not mean she is special needs. Even if she was a special needs child that doesn't give you the right to make fun of her and use the term special needs in a negative way. Someone looking disabled to her is a bad thing but yet she works worth special needs people. I have heard she isn't the kindest to the people she is supposed to be taking care of. When I first herd  it I thought there is no way that could be true. How could you have a problem with people with special needs. But, once again she has proven me wrong. She uses the term special needs and disabled as a way to make fun of children. To me that it as low as it gets. ITs not right. I hope she never has a child with any type of disability. Making fun of a child because you are upset or angry that your childs father needed to get home a little earlier than expected and was trying to do you a favor by dropping her off at five at your home but because you didn't answer your phone we decided to have you meet at the court ordered place because there was no there option for us. Is just ridiculous and not a good excuse to say what she did.

I took care of my girls alone for months at a time. I would love for her to try and take care of two preemie infants alone for even a day and then try to call me incompetent. I work my ass off everyday trying to make the best life for my girls. Not to mention that I help take care of Boston when she is with us on top of taking care of my own girls. I make sure she is fed, her hair is done, and dressed nicely. I make sure we go do fun activities daily so she has a good time with us. I make sure she feels loved and welcome in my home despite my feelings towards her mother. I would never say those things about Boston. I don't have to take the time to be a good step parent to Boston. But because I was raised the way I was I know the difference between right and wrong. Taking my feelings out on innocent children is just flat out WRONG. No matter how you look at it my girls are innocent. They love Boston and Boston loves them. I think what got me so upset last night was me picturing how bostons mother was going to teach her to be. That she would teach her to treat people the way she does  My girls will look up to Boston one day. They will learn things from her and the fact that Bostons mother hates my girls so much I can only imagine how she is going to teach Boston to treat them. I got so worked up thinking that Boston will be taught that she is better than my girls and that she doesn't need to be nice to them, or taught that she isn't family. Instead of letting Boston love her sisters I have a terrible feeling Bostons mother will teach her to be like her. I can't handle the thought of my girls going through pain and being bullied because of a mother who doesn't know right from wrong. It kept me up all night. I had a panic attack and I woke up this morning still sick. I called my dad in tears and freaking out he could barley understand me I was such a wreak. I am worried for my girls and Boston. It worries me the type of person Boston will be taught to be. I wish I could change that and show her that loving someone will always get you further in life.

I think knowing everything I have done for Boston over the years and then reading what I did last night was just so overwhelming. I would have thought that even though she doesn't like me she would at least appreciate the fact that I treat Boston so good. That I make her feel at home and very loved. I was once again i was  wrong. She doesn't care how Boston gets treated all she cares about is making people hurt. The one time my friend Whitney Hale got the courage to text bostons mother about how she was acting Bostons mother had her family call and harass her. She had her cousin Gina  call my friend and threaten to cut her throat. She threatened to come and kill her family and have her gang come find her. When the police got involved her cousin even threatened to kill the police officer. When my husband and I tried to contact Gina in hopes to get her to stop she said she couldn't wait to find me so she could be the crap out of me while I was pregnant. This type of family scares me. Its not right to threaten someones life. Its not right to make from of people with special needs. Its not right to use your child as a pawn in a game to get what you want. Things like this just make me sick.

Im sorry for this post and I wish I didn't feel the need to write it. But people need to know the truth. There is no excuse for what she has been doing. There is no way to find good in her actions. She wasn't doing it to protect Boston. She did it because she was angry and jealous. Thats whats is so messed up. Children are innocent and they should never be talked about the way she chose to. I don't know what type of mother could say those things about a innocent child and find a way to justify it.

I hope that Boston isn't taught to hate her sisters. I hope That Boston will get to choose for herself. I hope that my girls will continue to love each other and always be there for each other like sisters should be. Sister should buyout best friends. Boston, Harper, and Olivia deserve a chance to have a amazing loving relationship. They are family no matter what.

I think all my fear of how Bostons mother would treat my girls came true last night. I and deeply saddened that Boston will most likely be taught to hate instead of love her sisters. They have done nothing wrong.

Michael and I met and exchanged numbers on Feb. 4th 2012 Boston was born 20 days later. I was never sleeping with him while she was pregnant. I was never more than just his friend while she was pregnant. They were never together. So the fact that she wants people to think I am a home wrecker is just not true. I encouraged Michael to try and make things work for Bostons sake when I first met him . He told me there was no way they could make it work. He didn't want Boston to grow up and see how much he disliked her mother on a daily basis. He told me he cared way to much than to put Boston through that. I completely agree with his choice to not marry her.  Michael and I weren't together right away we dating for a while. I dated other guys and was not looking to settled down anytime soon. But Michael and I just had a undeniable connection. I couldnt help but fall in love with him. I mean he is a amazing father and husband and I am truly lucky to have him. Michael and I were meant for each other. We are great together.  Last night he held me while I cried and comforted me in any way that he could. Even though he was so angry and wanted to say so many things back to her after what she said he chose not to. He chose to not be spiteful and hurtful back to her. I can only hope she never says another thing about special needs children or ever any child at all to hurt them like she was trying to do last night. My heart breaks for Boston & my girls.

My girls will always come first. The moment anyone tries to hurt them I will turn into a mama bear faster than anyone could possibly imagine. My girls have done nothing wrong and do not deserve to be attacked by a 30 year old mother with serious issues.

I hope I can be the mother that teaches her girls to be strong even when it feels like there is no other option but to fall apart. I hope I can teach them making fun of special needs children is absolutely disgusting and wrong. I hope that my girls will understand there is no excuse for making fun or bullying others. I will not tolerate bullying in my home. I wish Boston's mother could say the same.

Here's to strong women. May we know them. May we be them. May we RAISE them.

We are going to have a great day together. I am going to probably be way over clingy on my girls and they will probably get annoyed but I need them to feel extra, extra loved today. :)