Elgans

Michael and I spent a great night with Boston again she got to facetime with her grandparents and our close friends Evan and Andrew! Andrews kids asked when did she have a baby.. So they had to explain to their little ones how sometimes people have babies with people they aren't married to. Im sure this is a conversation we will have to have with Boston one day. I really stay up at night thinking about how Boston is going to feel about me and if what I do everyday is setting a good example for her..If she will love me like family like I love her. Or will she shut me out. Either way I can only hope for the best I thought about what I would say to her when she wants to know what happened with her dad and mother. I have no place to tell that story I will leave that up to Michael.. but I will tell her how I have always cared about her and did the best I could to treat her like she was mine. One day when I have kids I'm sure there will be questions.. and my only answer will be to them about Boston is she is you sister and nothing will ever change that! The future scares me I have no idea what will happen or  how much things could change. I can only take it one day at a time.   

She makes this face so much we love it!

For better or worse, step parenting is self-conscious parenting. You're damned if you do, and damned if you don't. 

I have no problems with Boston she lets me old her whenever I want lately she has liked me better and cries when I leave the room.. So obviously I am doing something right with her. Which makes me feel so much better! Michael and I are excited to watch Boston grow up tonight we watched her play a game on dad's phone with her feet it was so funny! 

Much love,

The Elgans